arcadia
basics
name: dami/arcadia
age: 14
pronouns: he/they
sexuality: bisexual
gender: nonbinary
nationality: british
ethnicity: nigerian
before i start i just wanna say that i enjoy true crime and i listen to podcasts and videos on youtube about im not trying hate on any single person or youtber lmao or anyone who enjoys true crime i just wanna point out some things that i think are kinda weirdi feel like when some people talk about true crime especially in murders lots of the time there is a lot of focus on the on the perpetrator in this case the murderer instead of the victims, lots of the title of videos, newspapers and general media i have consumed start with like xxx murder is on the lose and give them a fancy or catchy nickname like the 'zodiac killer' i dont get me wrong im not blaming youtubers for this im mostly blaming media like the press i mean it does get our attention right? so like i can see whats the appeal of giving them catchy name but like sometimes it buts me off cuz why are we calling them the 'gold state killer' like shouldnt we be giving most our attention to the person that died. another thing to add to this i feel like when these things are reported on i feel like most people focus on how someone could commit thta crime and the back story on the murderer rather than the actual backstory on the victim. i do think criminology and psychology is an interesting topic however i feel like the person who has died is almost a secondary idea its never the main idea, it makes me feel weird its really scary as on the internet you can see people idolising these people who comit these crimes. well im not saying people who watch true crime support these people but its scary to know that this is what it could lead too.another point is that i feel like in lots of the true crime youtuber space i feel like a lot people in that community and make those videos are really desentised (i dont how to spell that word sorry) to the point where im seeing people doing mukbangs (which is where people eat alot of food) or like put on makeup while talking about someone getting ripped from limb to limb like??? people just accept it like imagine if your daughter died and you saw someone on youtube start talking about their fav eyeshadow colour while talking about your daughters death like i feel thats a bit weird or maybe thats just me?? im not saying all people do this are trying to intentionally be insensitive i highly doubt that i just feel like doing that puts a bad taste in my mouth, i think pople need to be more aware of it cuz i dont think i would like that if i saw some random perosn on the interet do that
before i start i know the title seems kind of weird i swear im not those people who say 'im stuck in the wrong generation' i promise i just want to highlight some things i see that gen z do (especially on tik tok) and how we can improve them. i like being in gen z, i like that our generation is one the first to be more progressive (well thats kind of lie obvs but im trying to state a point that out generation is more aware and educated on things like homophobia, racism and sexism and their effects on society).calling people mostly boys 'zesty' or 'sus' is homophobici know some people are going to get angry at me for this but let me explain. calling people zesty or sus is common practice on places like tik tok or even in real life, ive seen this many times myself. when people call people 'sus' or 'zesty' is basically saying that being gay is being weird/extra. this mockes gay men's mannerisms, this could also sterotype people. saying that to be gay they have to look, talk or act in certain way when a gay man can look, talk or act like anything. its a new chapter of homophobia that i see a lot in other forms of discrimination. like racism and misogyny (i will get to that later), its a new age where we see gay men as punchline for a 'joke'. the thing is lots of people in gen z claim to be against homophobia, that they are better than other generations but are we? or we conceal the progressive activism with jokes. our generation is far for perfection i know that but its a bit frustrating for me as a black person who is part of lgbtq and is perceived as a women to see white or striaght people say that our generation is so cool that we can take over the world of whatever is really annoying when they actively participating jamal 'jokes', daddy issues jokes and ect. this is just showing the privilege they have.this part of the essay was inspired by @savphobia on tik too
** love soul eater so far i like the concpet although the fanservice/weird stuff is quite off putting [however this is comman in anime so im not surprised]fanservice is not always bad however most of the time it has sexual nature aespecially towards women from the male gaze ykso like scenes are very off puttingthis why dont really like cis white men who watch anime as they sexaulise and support the sexualisation of these female characters who are most likely under the age of 18 or features that make them look under 18, white men and like non ea men like to use anime as a way to fetishsize ea women saying the have anime thighs, anime eyes ect just weird stuff ykthats why lots people in general dont like anime because of fanservice and weird anime watches who calles themselves weebs [thats a derogatory word btw dont call yourself that]i honestly dont blame them but there are some good shows that dont include them so ig thats good**
Dhjdhehe here is me ramblung again wow ill put trigger warnings in bold but most of them r like not that deep,,,, like their wont be deep in depth descriptions on each trigger more like a simple mention yayayayaya get it? cool 👍🏾if they r triggering just skip stay safe guys :)TW: MENTIONS ON HOMOPHOBIA AND VERY SLIGHT MENTION OF HATE CRIME AGAINST GAY PEOPLEi was watching some documentaries on gay people in nigeria (im nigerian btw) and was rlly upsetting cuz like gay people in nigeria r treated like shit there u can sent to prison for like 14 years and general people will start beating them in the street its rlly bad but i dont even wanna think about it ayways,,,, that started me to think about how my parents r homophobic/transphobic liek i shouldnt be surprised if they grew up in that society ofc they r homophobic,,, thats why they think the internet is brainwashing me 💀💀💀 its rrally annoying cuz the main reason why homophobia is a thing in nigeria (from my knowledge) is cuz of the British empire if u dont know nogeria was british colony up until 1956 (i think) and britain introduced the section 377 (i think idk the number exactly) that basically ment that gay people/gay 'acts' r banned not only in Britain but also in the briish colonies like nigeria,,, thats why it pisses me off when white peopel say 'Im ILleGal In 74 coUnTrieS' like stfu ur lukly u live in a country where gay people are not persecuted im not trying to take away the experience that those people face in countries it is liek in the west but its sooo frustrating when they stuff like this but they have never actually lived or experienced what it is like to live there,,, what do u think its like for people lving in those 74 countries liek shut up AJJDJSJDJDHFHFHDHDHDHDHD PEOPLE LIEK THIS NEED SOME BRAIN CELLS i mean ig lots of those people r tweens/teens so i hope grow up and changed but then again im a teen and im not dumb but whateveranyways
TW: HOMOPHOBIC FAMILIES, MENTION RELIGIOUS HOMOPHOBIAim really conflicted with my ethnicity now cuz like now the relationship between culture, religion which also ties in homophobia is verry closelike my parents liek ive said are deeply homophobic due their religion (they r catholic christians) and its highly irritating as they are the only place where i can learn my culture from since i live in the uk and no other relatives also live here so its like i want to be apart of my culture/family but at what cost? my parents force me to go to church, confirmation classes and alter serving classes even though they clearly now i do not believe in God or at least the Christian one (idk myself 💀) its so isolating as all my friends are christian i go to an all girls catholic school so fun i have to pretend i believe in God when i dont its tiring but yayayaya whatever i just have to suck it up im also an only child my parents also moved to the uk for me its like i feel guilty but i shouldnt its not my fault i didnt ask to be born im grateful though cuz life would have been even worse in nigeria with me now knowing im bisexual and nonbinary/genderfluid (im questioning rn,,,) i want to be freely who i am and i just canti love my culture but like its difficult knowing my countries past, present and futurewowoowowowowowowiiwowiwowiwoowowowowioeowowososisiososisisisidk how to feel now i feel like running around, jumping just doing something i feel bleugh but its gonna be alright :)uhhh bye stay safe ❤